offspring

With the impending arrival of my future son/daughter, I can't help think but about one thing: what the hell am I doing? I don't know how to change a diaper, I can barely keep my drawers clean due to some awesome IBS. My wife is a saint, and I have to repeat, she is a SAINT. She is going to be the mother of my child, hence my previous proclamation, only a saint would do such a thing. I've been "living it up" in Hawaii since the 'mater' left to forge our new home back in the northeast. It is not enough that she actually move there, but it must be forged. Since her arrival in the land of terrible accents, lobster, and pissed off waiters and waitresses, she has moved into our house, rescued our dog from a mauling, and recovered from sprained wrists.... while going through the 28-34 weeks of pregnancy. I, on the otherhand, have surfed almost every day, maybe gone to class, and got a cold. Needless to say, I think she wins the toughness contest.

A few thoughts on being a dad.... the first is that I have no idea what the hell I am doing. Thank God that the wife can breast feed, because at least that gives us a head start. As for myself, I need to learn how to change a diaper worse than the thirsty in the desert need water. I will attempt to practice on my dog, but the poor little furry booger is recovering from his previously described thrashing by a 80 pound dog (he's a 12 pound dachshund).

The baby shower was the worst.... Before wifey left the island of Oahu, her friend attempted to throw a baby shower. This did not go well at all. Do to poor planning, and poor is being generous, there was no planning. We ended up asking my aunt (whose place we were staying at, and it is a very posh residence) to invite 20 people over, this was 1 hour before it happened. It was a disaster, kids were screaming everywhere, we spent like 200 dollars on it, and nobody brought any baby gifts. Actually, I had to eat teddy bear shit, as part of the whole circus. It was a snickers, or so I was told. In the end, we realized that this pregnancy, and birth, was best left up to us because of this drastic failure. Fortunately, we were wrong. Her arrival in New England was met with unbridled support from family and friends. If is wasn't for them, I would have had to leave the last bit of my semester of my M.S. to go back to help. Which brings me to my next gripe... the only reason I stayed out here was to attend a mandatory attendance class (yes, in a graduate progam) in which out of the 8 weeks of my absence, was met with 1 class cancellation and 2 no-show professors. Great, awesome, fantastic. Glad I stayed, thank you for that.

In the meantime, my wife's baby bump has morphed into a mountain. It is incredible to see the miracle of life developing over Skype... do you sense my dripping sarcasm?? As my final days in Hawaii wind down, I am met with random "obligations" to go to parties that I don't care about. Fortunately, I have a few people out here helping me keep perspective (besides my therapist/existential detective), and it has helped. I ate a lot of pizza tonight, only because I didn't eat anything all day. This has not been a random occurrence. I will write later about Hawaii, perhaps when I have more patience, but for now I have to say that these islands mean the world to me, and at the same time, I can't wait to leave.

a proclamation

In the event of not sounding egotistical or privileged, I have to say I am not a child of the same. I opted to make a life for myself from nothing, to turn down an education from my parents (who really couldn't afford it) and to make my way on my own. I have done that, and quite successfully, according to some people. But now, I have given up a promising (but unsatisfied) career, to pursue other things. My time of returning to undergrad education has been humorous, humbling, and frustrating.... but now I wish to show my journey into the world of medicine. If only to shed light on the process, but to provide a humorous and human aspect into the whole world.

time to think....

So it has been almost 2 years since my last post, and I have to say, it has been a DOOZY! What I have learned and discovered is interesting, to say, and nonetheless shocking.... Mulder and Scully got married but still call each other by the same previously described names??? Wow, shocking, and amazing. Lets see... we had a new election, the end to the Iraq war, and the Double Down by KFC. I didn't think that the J-wich would be upped, but it has, KFC had some spies on the inside and decided to take over the cholesterol-inclined with a new debacle. So in celebration of my return to the blogging world, I ordered some pizza from the re-vamped Dominos, and will plaque my arteries tonight with their amazing goodness.

Anyway, there will be posts to come on my real thoughts on the world, and my pursuit of a career meant to help people and be "in the moment". I don't know how else to be "in the moment" than to connect with people in the realest form of human survival and intrigue.... how to prolong the human life by means of medicinal purposes.

Peace out.

this blog is now alive.... I've found the resolution to post again, stand by for more...